Yesterday I had a visit with a friend. This post is for her.
I am amazed by my friend. She is fighting a battle that I can only imagine. I listen to her experiences and I am simultaneously devastated and overwhelmed with awe.
All her life, my friend has been the strong one….always, in every situation. She has a gift of seeing things for what they are with stark clarity. She sees through all the BS most of us allow ourselves to be falsely soothed by. She cannot help herself but to the speak the truth and hold a magnifying glass to a situation that others try to sweep under the rug. And, as long as I have known her, I have admired and often been very grateful for this gift.
My friend’s gift has been such a heavy burden for her to bear. Others often don’t want to know what she sees. And they certainly don’t want to have their own flaws pointed out. My friend has often experienced pain in living out this gift in the world.
And now, my friend is not able to be the strong one. Yet, many in her life find it hard to think of her any other way. I have been guilty of this as well. I can’t even imagine the vulnerability she must be feeling in the midst of fighting this battle and coping with her current circumstances.
But, I do know this: My friend’s gifts in this world continue to be desparately needed. My friend has inspired me for most of my life, and I know she will continue to do so for the rest of it. I have never known anyone who can bring such clarity while doing so with love and laughter. My conversations with her are always comforting, challenging, thought provoking, and healing. We almost always share tears and laughter within a short span of time that always leaves me feeling better.
My friend, I see you. I appreciate you. I value you. I honor your worth. My life is infinitely better because you are in it. You have brought more into my life than I can find words to express. I have and will fail you in my areas of weakness. …and for that I am so deeply sorry. But, I will always do my best to be who you need me to be.
Thank you for being my friend. I love you. I am with you.