Tag Archive | break up

The Lessons in Loving Myself

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Oh how quickly things can change.
I am always learning,  always growing.  The lessons are often painful, but always necessary.

In being true to myself and my needs, I have needed to do another letting go. I am struggling with frustration with myself for letting this happen.  But, I am also remembering self compassion and honoring the lessons that are coming through this.

Life is such an interesting journey.  I am still doing a lot of reflecting about this recent turn of events.  I know I did what was right for me, but it sure has come with some pain.  I guess the most important lessons usually do.

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Putting one foot in front of the other

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Yesterday was such an interesting day.

I am continuing to battle waves of sadness about the end of my relationship.  But, I am also getting stronger every day.

I was also feeling deep concern about a friend yesterday who had something very big happening in her life. My thoughts were continously on her and many prayers were being offered for her.

Then, in the midst of one huge wave of sadness and concern, I  noticed a notification on my phone that I had been tagged in a post by a dear friend.  When I read the post, I was in awe at the timing. Her unexpected tribute to me shocked me, but was just what my heart needed at just the right time. My friend has an amazing talent to use words to create such beauty and power and to move hearts. I am so incredibly honored and humbled by her words.  And so incredibly grateful that she most likely listened to a nudging to write that just when it was most needed. That is divine love.

It has helped me regain some perspective.  I can let my thoughts get stuck in my old story that somehow I am not enough. That is why I have been reminding myself on this blog that I AM ENOUGH.

To have someone else so eloquently and beautifully remind me of the gifts I bring to this world, reinforced that for me. It reminded me that I AM ENOUGH.

Thank you, my dear friend.  You bring divine light and love to my life, more than you know.

So, today….there are more waves of sadness.  And ongoing concern for my friend.  But, I am breathing, and I am putting one foot in front of the other. I am approaching a corner, and who knows what is around the bend?

I am believing for good things. And in the meantime, remembering to let my light shine in all the dark places, including the ones in my own heart.

Creating Something New

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I knew for awhile now that change was coming in my life. I knew, because my spirit was getting weary from my heart  and mind at war.

I knew because I had been there before.  That awful, heart sinking sensation that happens when you know the person you love is either not willing or not able to meet your needs.

I decided to stop fighting.  But, because I had been fighting for awhile, my spirit is still weary. I imagine it will be for a while.  I will be patient and kind to myself while I bounce back.

The great thing I have learned about these experiences,  is that when you stop fighting, and choose to focus on the new, the bounce back comes more easily.

So, I am moving on. I am thinking about goals and dreams for my next chapter.  I grieve as I need to, but I won’t let myself get stuck there.

A new chapter can be exciting!  Who knows what the future holds? I believe there is an abundance of good coming my way. I am open to that and I welcome that. I also believe in my ability to handle the inevitable challenges that will come as well.

Here’s to creating new beginnings!

Hope

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I have hope.

I have hope for the future.

I have hope for tomorrow.

I have hope for creating a home environment that is stable and secure and family oriented.

I have hope for having a home my kids can come back to with partners and kids for special occasions and every day visits.

I have hope for my kids to have healthy, happy relationships and families and careers.

I have hope to continue my education and continue to enjoy my career.

I have hope that I will travel and enjoy experiencing some of the beautiful and interesting places on this planet.

I have hope that I will continue to meet interesting people who enrich my life and expand my horizons.

I have hope that I will one day meet a man who thinks I am worth fighting for and committing to,  and who will join me in building these dreams together.

I  have hope for a bright and happy future, and if that is alone, I know I will be happy.

I have hope, faith, and trust in the life I deserve. I have hope in my ability to help create that and in a loving God.

I have hope.