How Do You Say Goodbye?

I found out last night that my ex-husband’s grandmother is dying.  I was part of that family for over twenty years.  I loved her.  I still do.  Part of the pain of divorce comes in these kinds of situations.  It is difficult for me to process and work through my grief.  I am not sure I would be welcome, nor would I be comfortable to attend the funeral.  I would like to visit her at the hospital, but again, I don’t know if that would be possible without causing emotional turmoil.  My emotions must be put aside for the good of this lovely woman who lived a long and resilient life.  My sons are also struggling with what they will do.  The grief for us happens on many levels.  I told them we will find ways to pay our respects and honor her memory.  We will remember her well.