I always have a soundtrack playing in the background of my mind and my life.
Yesterday, the music shifted. The soundtrack changed stations. A sadness shifted to relief, then optimism. It was the realization. …once again. …of knowing I deserve more. It was that awakening. …once again….of my true worth.
I wonder how many times I will cycle through the questioning of that, the sadness, the struggle with self worth….back around to that awakening?
I wonder why it seems to often take a negative experience with someone….that could be interpreted as a form of rejection. …for that awakening to happen?
I wonder if I will be able to get to that awakening without those painful experiences? Or sustain that sense of remembering that I AM ENOUGH without that?
But, for now….I am glad I got back there again. I feel a renewed sense of expectation for good things in my future. I feel a renewed sense of certainty that I deserve good things.
I am grateful for the painful lessons that brought me back to this place.