Sometimes I get frustrated with myself for this. There are times when I feel like it would be safer to be more cautious with my love.
But….I don’t work that way. When I love, it is with all of me, and completely. Even when I don’t want to. It’s just the way my heart works.
It is the deepest desire of my heart….to love and be loved. All of my life, it is what I have searched for.
I recall realizing a few years into marriage that I was not loved as fiercely and deeply as I loved him. Since then, I have searched, had glimmers of hope and potential. …but it has yet to be returned.
I am not giving up on that dream. It is what makes me most happy. I am happy, but happy with something missing. And I don’t regret loving so much. I loved with all of me, for the times that were there and gone. Good came of my love. I know that, and I am glad for that.
So I am not going to stop loving deeply. I am not going to put limits on my heart. Yes, I am going to do my best to be smart about it. But, I am not giving up.
In the meantime, my kids, friends, family, and myself are going to get the overflow. .. all the love inside that needs somewhere to go!
Love is what it is all about.
I still have my dream 🙂